Have you ever felt like crying your heart out for no reason at all? Like being depressed for such a simple reason? Have you? Well, I myself have no idea what it is or what so ever� but I really feel like crying for the past 2 days� for no reason at all� as in nothing, but there�s no such thing as nothing right? That�s why I want to know what it is� I�ve been asking myself since yesterday, why do I want to cry? Why is it that I am feeling this great burden inside my heart? Am I having this little paranoia of mine again? What�s so depressing anyway? I am really clueless! What on earth is happening to me?! Can someone tell me? I really want to ease this burden that I�m having� it�s such a great hindrance! I can�t think properly and I keep on procrastinating things that I should be doing� oh for crying out loud can somebody tell me?! Please� help�

Ahahahahahaha� I�m totally out of my mind... don�t you think? Been asking weird questions to myself� I mean very weird questions� lol. That�s why too much depression is bad� very bad for ones health� and laughter is the best medicine for it! I want to laugh out loud� as loud as I can to ease my burden, but alas� I can�t. I can�t smile� well, a smile that�s from the heart� I�ve been faking smiles and laughter since yesterday hehe� would you believe that?! I am that desperate to make myself happy� at least for a while� man, I�m hopeless� so hopeless that I wanna kill myself and die from this agony. Bleh. =P

[edit]I forgot something... plugs! Katie for that really cool photolog! Rachel. dexiemon for flooding gakou with yer oekaki... lmao. MG i'm flooding your guestbook... sorry! & Alex.. the great bully. =P[/edit]

Ugh. I am procrastinating my mdr plate! lmao.. I am slacking... I don't really want to slack when I really need to work on something.... its just that.... ITS SO NICE TO SLACK AND DO NOTHING. man, I need some motivation to work... I'm getting tired with this isometric and orthographic drawings... gaaaah... Our perverted old prof told us that we'll have this perspective drawing next sem.. so in preparation with it we must mester the isometric and orthogrpahic drawings... *sigh* few more weeks to go... I can't wait~~.

Anyway, I better get going and start my plate now... lol

Have you ever been humiliated in a news article before? I mean, the article didn't actually pointed me out as some sort of bloody dirty school violator or something.. but she actually humiliated our whole college.. BUT I'm one of those students who occupies the said building that was dented by some irresponsible students... so as the law of action and reaction partakes, I'm quite disturbed and alarmed by that temper-flaring article that that bloody insensitive b*tch wrote. Our english professor told us to write some reaction on the said article but was later on changed into a "create a letter about your reaction about that written article; addressed to the author". haha.. most of us wrote something bloody for her to read. and that's for humiliating us.. i wrote something..... not as bloody as my classmate's but something that will make her realize that she should have confirmed that bloody humor from her friend first before writing that bloody article of hers. XD. tsk tsk tsk...

And as our finals approach, more plates loom.. oh the 'joy' of making plates & sleepless nights everyday... hahaha... they are really killing us little by little... and by the time of submittion we'll be good as dead for sure.. just in time to rest in pieces... I mean Peace during sem breaks.. damn school... XD. Help me for I am burried under this thick stack of plates to finish~~ not to mention the written examinations we'll be taking.... T^T;;;

[edit]changed the commenting system..[/edit]

Why is that there are times that we have this eagerness of blogging / writting something down but when you're all set up... there'll come this problem of how to start it off! lol.. I find it very... bothersome! hell yeah.. Anyway, back to where I'm supposedly be posting... Its no ordinary friday afternoon for me today! ^_^ Spent it with some of my barkada.. We watched something.. uh.. I thought its a play or something most likely related to that... uhm.. no.. it was a mini-concert! LOL.. so... its somewhat related... haha.. watching it made us reminisce our high school days again! Oh how we loved and missed the stage! the theatre! and performing something to give the audience some entertainment! lol.. that sounded a bit.. err... whatever~ anyhoow, the concert was awesome! I loove it.. hehe.. and in my observation, I think were the one people i mean audience who watched it lively enough to squeel and do comments like "and ganda ng boses nyan girl na yan!" and "si manong black-eyed green peas feel na feel yung kanta~". lmao. in other words... nagingay kami. XD. we often do that in high school! nyahahaha....

Why is it that....... how... what on earth is happening to me?! or.. should i say.. to my brain nowadays?! I cant seem to think well... uhm.. well enough to express what i wanted to say... or whatever.. *sigh* stupid brain.. work... work... T^T;;; ugh.. anyway. i'm telling you this because I dunno how to end this blog entry either.. gawd... my braing must be half dead again.. XD hahahaha... anyway, ciao~

uhm... well, what can I say? New layout is up? lol.. [edit]uhm.. still editing some things... uh.. everything seems to be workin well ne.. expect for the shoutbox.. i'll edit it later..[/edit]

I can't believe its sunday already! Its already the second week of september... one more week and its our finals already... omg... few more weeks.... heh.. I'm currently working on this very annoying plate for DC. Wherein I have to texturize this 20 x 15 board with both natural and artificial textures using 3 mediums... the pencil, watercolour, and poster colour~. For me to texturize it in a detailed way, I have to use the Pointilism Technique, which is quite tiring and takes a lot of patience. lol. i'm quite annoyed with it, especially on the pencilwork part.. heh. i don't have enough patience on producing as many points / dots / periods as i can with that conical pencil of mine. ewww.. i hate it! haha. I have to finish it tonight because I have to submit it tomorrow morning.. but the thing is, I'm already dizzy from that pointilism.. @_@;; not just dizziness, i'm having this difficulty in breathing too.. oh the horror... what's happening with me?! haha, hope to be okay after this entry though.. I need to finish that plate! and there's no way dizziness or headaches or difficulty in breathing would stop me from doing it! *laughs* anyway, i think i gotta go end this for now.. I have to go back working on my plate~ ^_^

Oh yeah, this might be like so darn late but anyway.. there's a shoutbox already... ^^;; and erm.. thanks for all those peeps who read my poems~ ^_^ and for all those who commented... THANKS A LOT! I'll plug you all next entry~

[edit]Yay for me for i have finished my plate.. Sleep time for me.. But before that lemme PLUG all those commenters and taggers! Dexiemon. Sakura Riu. Chill. Miao. Nekoneko. Flco. Reiko. Shine. Angela. Vonnies. did i missed anyone? Heh. Me going to doze off now ne..~[\edit]

[edit2]Oh yeah, CELINE has a new layout too! go visit her![/edit2]

The month of September came in a shower, a shower of some hard rain and floods together with some strong winds as well. haha. XD... because of it, our tuesday class got suspended.. and erm.. didnt go to school again today. lol. why? because uhm.. of the flood! The I wasn't able to get inside the campus, or even at the gates because of the flood! lol. So I decided to go back home instead... I don't wanna swim that dirty smelly flood ne? XD. darn rain, darn flood, oh darn everything.

Oh, in the brighter side of it, I was able to create 2 poems for the past 2 days of nonstop rain. lol. Here's poem #1 & poem #2. ^_^;; not so good ne? hehe.. *needs practice* >_<. Kya~~ but anyhoo composing poems are like my 'break / past time' for drawing.. hehe.. too much drawing and sketching is bad... lol.

Oiya, and thanks for all those people who commented on my last post! ^_^ PLUGS! Reiko. Dexiemon. Sakura Riu. Rina. fish / jun. Karla. MG. Mitchie. Renchan. p.s. who is that barneymon at the comment box? O.o;;;