LIMINALITY

This is basically Erised's online journal archive site. This is where my old blog posts are moved from my domain journal.

September 20, 2003

Have you ever felt like crying your heart out for no reason at all? Like being depressed for such a simple reason? Have you? Well, I myself have no idea what it is or what so ever� but I really feel like crying for the past 2 days� for no reason at all� as in nothing, but there�s no such thing as nothing right? That�s why I want to know what it is� I�ve been asking myself since yesterday, why do I want to cry? Why is it that I am feeling this great burden inside my heart? Am I having this little paranoia of mine again? What�s so depressing anyway? I am really clueless! What on earth is happening to me?! Can someone tell me? I really want to ease this burden that I�m having� it�s such a great hindrance! I can�t think properly and I keep on procrastinating things that I should be doing� oh for crying out loud can somebody tell me?! Please� help�

Ahahahahahaha� I�m totally out of my mind... don�t you think? Been asking weird questions to myself� I mean very weird questions� lol. That�s why too much depression is bad� very bad for ones health� and laughter is the best medicine for it! I want to laugh out loud� as loud as I can to ease my burden, but alas� I can�t. I can�t smile� well, a smile that�s from the heart� I�ve been faking smiles and laughter since yesterday hehe� would you believe that?! I am that desperate to make myself happy� at least for a while� man, I�m hopeless� so hopeless that I wanna kill myself and die from this agony. Bleh. =P

[edit]I forgot something... plugs! Katie for that really cool photolog! Rachel. dexiemon for flooding gakou with yer oekaki... lmao. MG i'm flooding your guestbook... sorry! & Alex.. the great bully. =P[/edit]

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