Yesterday, I have been reading blogs that have rants all over a entry. Tis sad no? yesterday, i tried to write an entry too.. but i just can't.. maybe because of those ranting entries I had read earlier.. so i decided to chat on irc instead of surfing the net and doing stuff like posting and oekaki-ing. irc made me feel a little bit okay, talking to my "friends".. also, my connection got better so i downloaded some mp3s too. I decided to draw an oekaki but then my brother snatched the computer away from me and sort of ruined my dear oekaki.. ugh.. so i went berserk and left the computer open all night.. blah... my uncle saw it running (i don't know if he got scared of the screensaver -- sadako commin out of the screen) and turned it off.. nyahaha XD

I and 2 of my friends Keeny and Miko had started layouting our yearbook.. haha.. Keeny assigned me to encode the other section's profiles... blah, I'm too lazy last night to do it so I didn't and luckily our moderator said that were not suppose to directly encode it... we have to dissect it first :p poor Keeny finished encoding our section's profiles :x. Seth and the others didn't show up yesterday. They didn't today either blah... do they expect us to finish the whole yearbook all by ourselves?! =__=;;; Owel, she promised me that she'll come tomorrow... whuahahahaha.. at last some company! arigatou ne?

A big fat PLUGGIE goes to a fellow gakounian Mitchie for that kawaii new layout! *baaahhh baaaaaaahhhh baaaaaaahhhh* and to abs for that candy-like layout that i loooove! nyahahaha.. oh yeah, and demi tell us your new url, okay? well, whenever you've finished moving...^^;; gambatte ne!!

As promised, changed the layout for the blog marathon with demi. now its purple overload! lol.. this is actually the first blog marathon i've gotten into and at the same time its my first time using an orig art as a blog layout! lol. now that's something unusual..^^;;;

Sorry about the dream sequence part of my previous blog.. i didn't know it was sort of cut.. heehee... ^_^() so i'll just re-opst it. here goes: I was in ancient china (mulan type of surroundings). I was in a room when some people entered and told me something about about my arranged marriage. Just when they started the ceremony it turned all-black and the next thing I knew I was in another room, its a 17th century french room.. same case someone entered and informed me about an arranged marriage *creepy...*. then i was transferred in a carriage.. we entered a tunnel and it runed all-white -__-;; the next thing I knew was i'm in out school canteen with my *offline* friends having fun. Suddenly my mom appeared telling me to go out and eat.. =__=;;;; then i felt cold and someone was like pulling my feet.. then i realize it really was my mom pulling my blankets telling me to wake up and eat my breakfast =____=;;;.. weird dream..

Yesterday, I had watched Anger Management. Its nice and pretty funny too but I still prefer Johnny English. I love meatballs! -- not the meatballs on spaghetti, its that fat cat in the movie used as a model for cat-wears... I love the way Dave's (Sandler) "anger" was managed. It was manage by releasing itself from him.. lol.. nice therapy i must say, maybe I should try it for myself since I'm the "silent" type of person. :)

I'm currently working on a new layout. Well a layout for this site's anniversary layout. yay, merely jaded will soon turn one! and speaking of anniversary... few days after this site's anniv is this blog's turn to turn one! lol.. oh the busy-ness of it all! I'll be working on another layout.. this time its for this blog and the blog marathon.. so i'll be off for now? ja~

Happy Easter to all! ^__^ and this is my little easter gift to all! that's the only thing i could think of as an easter gift ^__^()() hope you like it... hehe..

Yesterday, me and brother went swimming with our baby cousin. it was fun and very refreshing indeed.. my brother's now a better swimmer than i am... heh i need to practice swimming again.. waaahh the sun-burn! >_<" After swimming, we went out to eat something, i ate peach melba split (its a sort of banana split but instead of banana it has peach on it!) my mom and the others ate halo-halo.. waaii waii i <3!

Today, we watched Johnny English! Yeah its the one with Rowan Atkinson (aka Mr. Bean) as the star.. hehe.. and what do you expect?! of course its hilarious! but it sort of reminded me of London. gaaah... -__-;;;

For all people who commented on my previous entry, thanks a lot! Yes, you're a bit ma-drama pero okay lang! I'll try to get to know her first ^_^; yes, its soo hard to decide. i want to give my father another chance.. but i don't think moving there with him is the only way to give him a chance, and besides my brother needs to patch things up with him too.. he's the one who grew up totally without a dad.

I thought that i'd only be wastting my time again mailing my dad. For all i know he had forgotten about us. Well, that was just a thought.. and i was wrong this time around.. i guess.. last night i was just checking up mails as usual surprisingly my father replied to what i've sent him the other day. O__o;; now that's somewhat alarming.. lol.. i never really expected that he'll answer that email from his abandoned daughter.. naturally i replied and today i received another reply asking me if i'm willing to move to europe, specifically to london to study and live there with his girlfriend. He also asked me why on earth did i choose to take up advertising instead of nursing.. is he actually starting to care about me?

Now, i'm confused... i'm no longer in focus.. gaaah i can't think!! i can't decide whether i'd accept his offer or not.. i want to go and study in london... but i don't want to leave my mom and my brother here.. i don't want to meet nor live with his fiance.. i don't want to live with a complete stranger in a foreign land.. aaahh its hard to think..

Oh yeah, I didn't know that her father abandoned her too.. how sad ne? *hugs mg* hehe! and speakin of stepfather... i'd soon have a stepmom.. @__@;;;

Watched What a Girl Wants.. yeap the Amanda Bynes movie! I've always wanted to watch it since i saw its preview... i don't know why. but now, i do. No, i think it isn't appropriate for me to give out a spoiler... by telling the summary of it. of course i'll just keep my mouth shut. The reason i got that 'attached' to it is because, she's like me! I have no father... and my mom's the only person i have. the difference is, in the movie, she wants to see and to know who her father is.. in my case, well, i do want to see my father.. again. i already saw my father and i already know who he is.. and worst part of all... i .. i well, i don't like him that much. i do miss him, sometimes.. to top it up, yes, i would love to see my father again.. after leaving and abandoning us. its hard to grow up without a dad and yeap, i know how she, i mean amanda bynes in the movie, feels. i guess i just have to live with it. i don't have enough money to go and find my father.. he's somewhere in the middle east... or in london.. so.. i guess i just have to wait till he gets back here.. now, i wonder will i ever had the chance to have that father and daughter dance when i turned 18?

Its so sad that my internet connection's so freakin slow today. i hate it, if only i can change back to dsl.. ggrrrr.. too bad my mom won't let me.. and too bad that my money ain't enough.. look, my mom stopped giving me my allowance since its vacation... what luck. this vacation ain't that fun... ;___; i miss my allowance...

Hey, the other day, i posted something like, "I bet it'll be repeating the same thing..."? well, yiiippeeee! last night it actually didn't! hehe.. Yesterday, I went out to meet some friends... we were supposedly just be hanging around a mall... due to some resons we ended up watching animes in a friend's house. haha.. Yeap, we watched around 4 animes namely Chobits, Pita Ten, Fruits Basket, and Hunter X Hunter. Luckily they have 4 computers and an unlimited internet account... so we went online and do stuff like oekaki, watch more animation, download scanlations (and read them afterwards), laugh at each other's sites.... and drool at those awesome artworks... @__@;;. Surprisingly I was able to finish a CG for around 3 hours or less working on it! lol.. now, that's something unusual.. because i would prolly work on a CG for about 1-2 days to a week! lol... if only i'll be that productive everyday.. XD oh well... ^^. I finished it exctly 6 am. and that's the time we decided to go to sleep... a nap rather.. lol.. yeap, we were alive all night busy dowloading stuff... ^^;;;

Intoccabile gave me this oekaki as a gift for the coming 1st anniversary of my artsite. Wow.. that was early... hehe... it's only April.. and speaking of site anniversary... i-chan's and demi's artsites will also be celebrating their 1st annivs!! meaning i really have to stop procrastinating and start working on gift arts.... luckily, it'll be Holy week.. i'll surely have time to work on those gifts.. lol.. or else... i might even doodle on an oekaki.. like what i-chan did.. ^^;;;

Oh finally! I thought i wouldn't be able to blog tonight beacuse of this stupid slow internet connection... heh... what a relief.. but come to think of it, its no longer Friday, well here in our country that is.. so oh well, "blog what may". heh..

Look, it's friday and (what's new?) I'm stuck here at our house staring at our tv for hours.. *blinks* man, what life... i should be like out with my friends.. enjoying life. but no.... i'm doing nothing but to waste time in front of the tv waiting for some miracle to happen. gee... i bet i'll be repeating the same thing tomorrow evening.. well, okay i'll be meeting my friends early tomorrow.. yet, i'm still up waiting for my eyes to get all-sleepy.. *sigh* i really missed school.... wherein i would have to strive hard to survive another day. Well question: Why is it that we often realize how important something is when it's already gone?

The week's finally over.. but if you'll try to take an oeverview of it.. (well, my week that is) it'll be a cycle of this: wake up, lunch, stare at the tv, open the computer, go online, oekaki, chat, download songs, dinner, continue the internet stuff, watch an anime, sleep. how boring.. how i wish i could make it a little bit more productive. like want to go and study driving, finally start something regarding our yearbook, be at least little bit busy once again... you know, do stuff and have something called-- life. sort of things... but i guess, i can only do those every weekends... haha... our editor-in-chief said we'll start working on our yearbook after Holy week.. that means.. somewhere around April 21? thankgoodness. ^__^

Oh yeah, i find this blog interesting.. that's nice.. hehe.. i better go and look for more interesting stuff over the net to keep my mind occupied for a while...

Well, yes. i've changed the layout again... don't you people like it? tell me if you don't or if you do... so i can change it again.. nyahahaha.. nothing, i was just looking for something to do like layouts and stuff.. its boring out here you know.. well, speaking of boredom.. if i'm already bored here... what else if i'm living somewhere in Singapore, Hongkong, China, and other countries with the said killer pneumonia?! oh my gulay! imagining it makes me =_____=;;;;; i better ask people who lives there.. for e.g. some thbbs members.. hehe.. but they seemed to be not bored at all if you ask me.. ^^;;; but then maybe they are..

And, why are you people on hiatus! oh well, then i must find more blogs to read whenever i'm bored.. ahaha.. thankgoodness she's still there.. ahahaha.. man, i sound soo hopeless! *laughs*... at least i can still draw oekaki(s) and post messages.. oh and chat on IRC and msn and download songs.. ahahahaha.. XD

It's been a while since my last entry... hehe.. looks like i'm getting lazier everyday.. *sigh* must... stop..being..lazy...before..it..gets..worse...must..change... lol..but i think i wouldnt change that overnight.. either to master the art of oekaki-ing using a mouse overnight.. that's just soo impossible. yes, i hate to admit it again, i'm being soo addicted oekaki-ing.. and i hate myself for i can't do oekaki here at home.. life is soo sad when you really wanted to do something but you just cant.. well, i have finally finished d/l-ing something that'll make the applet work. thankgoodness.. i just hope it works.. for *sigh* i've waited 2 hours and a couple more of minutes for it.. hehe..

On the other side, i've been d/l-ing mp3s... hehe.. its like hrm.. a hobby already! for some unknown reasons, i have this d/l of Silvertoes by Parokya ni Edgar... at first its been stuck around 5% of d/l, then after 2 months i was able to d/l it again... but like before i wasnt able to finish the whole song.. and now its stuck at 50% of d/l... unfinished! don't tell me i have to wait for 2 whole months again just to finish the other half of it?! gaaahh.. life is soo sad... and unfair.. T__T;, well, i rather d/l something from simple plan or tatu.. at least i can finish a song or 2 or even 3 in just hours!.. lol.. btw, can anyone suggest other songs to d/l? i'm running out of songs and to d/l songs is like my remedy for boredom.. just to kill time.. ^__^;; Everybody's free to suggest.

For other happenings.. well, i've scanned new sketches, mainly a sketch of my friend Seth, my gift art for i-chan and demi and some extra sketches... lol.., besides from sketching and art related stuff, well... i'm stuck home doing nothing but to stare at our tv all day, if not i'd go online and post things at Twisted Hopes or comment on oekaki(s) while downloading songs and stuff... see how boring life could be when school holidays?! I wish to be back in school, well less the homeworks and projects... ^__^;; gaaahh.. i guess i just have to wait till June..

Long time no postn'? lol.. kiddin! i was just too lazy to blog... if not, i'm busy doing college-related stuff... so.. oh well... *sigh* and remember the sketch i linked before? waaiii finally finshed it last night! or should i say early this morning? XD it was finished around 1.30 am my time. the result's worth it anyway.. lol.. wanna see it? {{ CLICKIE }}. nyaaa... oiya, my my, yesterday (..just when my connection's sooo slow...) i uploaded a new layout for 'merely jaded'. yes. its soo bright and colorful... lol... whuahahahahaha.. summer!